Pastor Mark
Beloved Remnant,
Occasionally I find myself in heaviness. I know you do as well.
Sometimes I look within and do not see the awakening, the progression of the Inner Man that I know should be there, and I grow discouraged. Then I look outward at this fallen system, this world under the Archon, and my soul is grieved. I watch the news, I read of the horrors - children abducted, abused, trafficked, murdered by strangers and even by their own blood. I hear of unborn sparks taken into clinics to be torn and sacrificed on the altar of convenience, more than 50 million in this nation alone in three decades. It grieves me beyond measure.
I witness my own brethren consumed by anxiety, by division, devoid of empathy and courage. I see the kingdoms of this world, even our own government, persecuting half the nation in an ideological war. Clergy, who claim to speak for G-d, defiling children under His Name. Turn the dial, turn the channel, open any paper - you will find crimes against the Image.
And the scripture from Bereishit returns to me: “And G-D saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every imagination of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually.” - {Sefer Bereishit / Genesis 6:5}
Every time I see these things, my spirit churns. A few weeks ago, I found myself in a discouragement that bordered on true darkness. It would not lift. I felt overwhelmed, unfulfilled, as if I alone was carrying this weight.
And in that low place, I did what we must always do, I turned inward toward the silence, - I prayed, I meditated, I entered the inner chamber. I sought Gnosis.
In His Light, I began to rise.
Since then, many of you have come to me saying the same thing,- - a heaviness you cannot name, a fog you cannot explain. You feel down, isolated, unable to connect. So what better time to speak on this? For this is not uncommon to the awakened soul.
The great ones - Noach, Moshe, David, Eliyahu, Yirmeyahu - mighty prophets, men of power - even they knew this darkness. They knew the crushing weight of the flesh, the despair of the soul trapped in matter, to the point they asked HaShem to take their lives. Yet they found the escape.
And what was their escape? Not outward. Inward.
They remembered the Spark.
Hear the writer of Ivrim, believed to be Shaul:
“And what shall I more say? for the time would fail me to tell of Gedeon, and of Barak, and of Samson, and of Jephthae; of David also, and Samuel, and of the prophets: Who through faith subdued kingdoms, wrought righteousness, obtained promises, stopped the mouths of lions... out of weakness were made strong...” {Sefer Ivrim / Hebrews 11:32-40}
Out of weakness they were made strong. Why? Because their strength was never of this world. It was derived from the Father of Lights, from the Pleroma, from our loving heavenly Father above the Archons.
Depression has many faces. It respects no intelligence, no wealth, no age. The system wants you to think it is merely chemical, merely mental. But it is more.
There is the light depression - the short sinking after bad news, a blow to the ego. It lasts hours, days.
And there is the heavy, chronic darkness - futility, hopelessness, emptiness, loss of joy, loss of self, relentless guilt and shame. This is when the soul has forgotten who it is. It believes the lie of the Demiurge - that this fallen world is all there is.
Proverbs says it plainly: “Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.” {Proverbs 13:12}
When a man has no hope, when he sees no Light beyond this matrix, he slips into paralysis. The mind says: "I can't get out. It's hopeless. There are no options." The future looks bleak because he is looking with earthly eyes. He has stopped fighting. He has believed the broadcast.
Shaul warned us: “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” {Ephesians 6:12}
Beloved, never underestimate this. Unclean spirits - the Archonic influence - are alive and active. They broadcast. Have you not been driving down the road, your mind at peace, and suddenly a foul thought, a fearful thought, a lustful or hopeless thought is simply injected? You were not thinking it. It was placed.
“Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience...” {Ephesians 2:1-3}
This is why pharmaceuticals without Spiritual Gnosis will never be the answer. They can dull the flesh, but they cannot free the soul. A nation drugged is a nation still asleep. Children see their parents take pills like M&M's and they learn: this prison is managed by a pill.
And yes, sometimes we are simply exhausted. Look at Eliyahu.
After the great victory on Carmel, after raising the dead, he ran from one woman - Izevel. He collapsed under a juniper tree and prayed to die: “It is enough; now, O LORD, take away my life; for I am not better than my fathers.” {I Kings 19:4}
Four traps caught him - and they catch us:
1. He presumed the outcome. He thought all would repent. They did not. We do the same - we map out how this world should be, and when it fails, we despair. Guard against this. HaShem is sovereign, not us.
2. He focused on the problem, not the Power. On Carmel he saw Elohim. In the wilderness, he saw only Jezebel. He saw the enemy's power to destroy, not HaShem's power to deliver.
3. He focused on himself. Self-pity. “I, even I only, am left.”
4. He was physically exhausted. A tired body makes a vulnerable temple.
And what did our Father do? He did not lecture him. He gave him Gnosis through restoration:
1. Get Rest. “Arise and eat... and behold, there was a cake baken on the coals, and a cruse of water at his head.” {I Kings 19:5-6} A tired mind cannot hear the still small voice.
2. Get a True Focus. Eliyahu thought he was alone. HaShem said, I have reserved 7,000 who have not bowed to Baal. You are not alone, Remnant. You have never been alone.
3. Receive New Expectations. HaShem was not in the wind, not in the earthquake, not in the fire - but in the still small voice. {I Kings 19:11-12} The true work is not outward spectacle. It is the inner work, the secret implantation of His Nature within you.
4. Take Obedient Action. “Go, return on thy way...” {I Kings 19:15} Do not sit in the cave of your emotions. Rise and move in obedience. Action breaks paralysis.
So how do we, as Awakened ones, prevent this descent?
1. Focus on Your Awesome Creator. “Thou shalt have no other gods before me.” Meditate not on the Archon's world, but on the Father beyond it. All things work together for good for those who are called according to His purpose. {Romans 8:28-39} If G-d be for us, who can be against us?
2. Remember the Goal. Our goal is not happiness in the matrix. Our goal is resurrection - to become like Him. “Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.” {Colossians 3:1-2} Seek ye first the Kingdom. {Matthew 6:33}
3. Pray and Study Daily. Prayer is not begging. It is communion. It is the Spark speaking to the Source. Study is how He speaks back. Without it, you will be battered by the world's frequency.
4. Be Patient. With yourself, with others, with G-d. “My times are in thy hand...” {Psalms 31} He does not judge as man judges.
5. Be Content, Thankful, and Generous. Godliness with contentment is great gain. {I Timothy 6:6} When you sow to the Spirit, you reap Life Everlasting. {Galatians 6:7-10} Get your eyes off yourself by giving to others.
6. Be Positive and Active. Walk by faith, not by sight. {II Corinthians 5:7} Make each day count. Do not mope. Accomplish.
7. Be Faithful and Obedient No Matter What. “We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed...” {II Corinthians 4:8-18} Paul called it all “light affliction.” Light! Because he weighed it against the eternal weight of glory.
Hear Shaul again: “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” {Philippians 4:13} Not through the flesh. Through the Christ Within. The Inner Anointed One.
This is Gnosis, beloved. To know that the Christ is not just out there on a cross 2,000 years ago - but alive in YOU. The hope of glory.
“For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ.” {II Corinthians 1:5-7}
So free your mind. The prison door was never locked. You were only told it was.
Rise above the darkness. The Light was in you all along.
Be encouraged, spirited Believer of Light - all things dark are illuminated in His grace,
Pastor Mark